She may not appreciate this shot in ten years time, but I’m going to put this up anyway *hehe* BECAUSE of two main reasons :
1. This is the only period in her life when she would smile and look like THIS =)
2. Anya has been AMAZINGLY ‘good’ these past 3 days! I’m SOOO very much loving her company! *And I’d like to have this on record!*
You see, Anya is one individual who’s quite a perfectionist.
Since she’s little, she observes, she expects highly of other people, she’s not easily pleased, she pays attention to details and so she’s easily annoyed if things don’t go according to what she hopes or imagines them to be.
And now that she’s seven, she’s even more capable of voicing out her unhappiness about the world around her.
Oh yes. My patience level is greatly tested everyday.
Many times it’s not about feeling mad actually. It’s more about feeling sad when I note her train of thoughts, see her actions or hear her responses.
Her overall negative attitude towards life often numbs my mind. Sometimes it drives me up the wall. It often makes me feel speechless and hopeless too, like I have failed in parenting her.
Yes we teach her the importance of being grateful since she’s very little.
I share with her how a grateful attitude towards life and everything springs naturally from the heart, and when there’s gratefulness towards life’s countless blessings, there is naturally no room for complaints.
I tell her too that we can only have such a joyful, grateful heart if God changes us. When Jesus Christ is in our life, HE can change us to be a better person inside out.
I share how unless God works in her life, there’s absolutely nothing that anyone can do – not me, not Daddy, not anybody – that can change her.
Anya seems like a different person though since some three days ago.
It feels like I have a different daughter!
I mean, I pick her up from school and I don’t see unhappiness, sulkiness nor rudeness in her.
As I walk down the road with her, I look at her, I listen and I remember thinking to myself, ‘Wow! We can actually have a conversation without any frowns on her face nor unhappy tones in her voice today! I’m so enjoying this!’
I’m pleased. Very pleased. And I tell her about it too.
Well, frankly, while I’m enjoying all this, day by day, I realise I must not expect it to continue this way ‘all the time’. Because she’s after all only SEVEN years old, and just like all of us, she’s still in the process of changing and learning, and growing up.
Just as much as it’s not easy for us parents, it sure is not easy for her too.
When you read this years from today, know that you’re very much loved by all of us. From day one. And I look forward to seeing how God wonderfully works in you and through you.
You’re in my prayers always.